Wow!

Ok, so I ordered the Insanity workout by Beachbody two days ago.  I check my mail today and it's there.  I'm so excited and scared at the same time.  The workout is supposed to be 45 minutes, I think.  It might take me two hours or more to get through it because it literally is insane.  We will see but I'm going to give it a go! 

Not such a good day, goals wise.

The day started out with me not having enough almond milk for my protein shake so I substituted a little orange juice.  It tasted fabulous, kind of like a creamsickle.  However, I think the sugar in the orange juice set the downfall of my day.  I have been dragging this week, I think partially because I think I'm coming down with something.  2:30 hit me and the cravings went sky high and of course, the pantry at work was restocked yesterday and the rice krispie treats were screaming at me.  I don't know why I succumb, it doesn't help me wake up.  It doesn't energize me but for some reason my brain thinks it will before I walk into the kitchen. 

The only bright side is I did have my personal trainer tonight so that will help with damage control from earlier in the day.  Even that kicked my ass more than usual.  I was out of breath and almost felt like I was hyper ventilating.  I didn't even do my last set completely, I couldn't do it anymore.  It's got to be because I have felt lousy all week.  I did journal my day and it was less than pretty.  My carbs were out of control at 300...yikes! Despite the day, I still feel good about the week overall.  It's been a lifetime of bad carbs, it's not going to happen overnight and it's not going to happen everyday.  Live and learn and keep moving. 

I have a WII and a friend of mine loaned me her Zumba. I'm going to check it out!  I love Zumba in the gym but right now I would need a body bag after a class.  Of course, I also ordered the Insanity workout.  I'm excited and scared all the same time.  If you haven't checked out the Insanity workout, check out the transformation videos on YouTube...PHENOMENAL!!!

Scale was friendly this morning

I got on the scale this morning and was shocked.  In a week and a half it says I'm down 13lbs.  Of course, I know this is not a reality.  I was retaining water last week, and my weight fluctuates up to 5lbs a day.  However, the number on the scale was close to being in the next range of numbers, so that's a good thing for me! I'm not comfortable with the number so I'm not going to reveal it yet but eventually I will reveal. 

I thought calories and carbs were pretty good today until I calculated everything.  I'm a bit high on the calories and carbs.  Journaling is a must for me.  I really need to work at getting the carbs down.  One of the problems is lunch is catered at work everyday.  I know, I could bring my own food in and that might be what needs to happen.  The bright side is I do try to stay away from the fully stocked pantry of rice krispie treats, sour patch kids, chips, pop tarts, etc.

I really want the calories to remain under 1500 and the carbs need to be closer to 60 a day for awhile. That awesome cornbread during lunch and the bad choice in dinner (didn't feel like cooking) did me in for the day. 

Wednesday	Calories	Fat	Carbs	Fiber	Protein
B- Protein Shake	222	7.3	21.5	5.8	19.5
B- Coffee w/2 creamers	40	2	4	0	0
B-Tea w/1 creamer	20	1	2	0	0
S-Red. Fat Cheddar 1.5 oz	120	9	2	0	10
L - 2 oz chicken	141	6	0	0	21
L - 1 potato wedge	50	1	8	0	1
L - cornbread	273	9	40	2	6
L - salad w/20 cashews, 2 tbs rasp vinagrette	215	16	15	0	4
L - 1 Diet Coke	0	0	0	0	0
S- Apple	72	0.25	19	3	0.35
S- 2tbs almond butter	202	19	6	1	4
D - Taco Taquitos - 2	380	22	28	4	20
S-Red. Fat Cheddar 1.5 oz	120	9	2	0	10
Total	1855	101.55	147.5	15.8	95.85

Revelation...kind of...

Today started out like any other day except with a sore throat.  Let's hope it doesn't fester into something worse.  Today, I remembered my protein powder in my protein shake for breakfast. It's the little accomplishments you have to celebrate! 

The day started out like any other day, then I received an email from someone that I have a history with.  I was crazy in love with this man for three years.  I will call him A.  A had some issues in his life he was dealing with and when he deals he shuts out the world around him, including me.  That was back in June.  He emailed me today to apologize for hurting me and that he does love me.  However, since June things have changed.  I have never stopped loving A but this relationship was toxic.  When he's 'there', he was wonderful but when he's not, he was an ass.  So during the past 7 months his best friend and I have become friends and have gotten fairly close.  I was a little reluctant simply because they were best friends and I had hoped that A would get his head out of his ass.  C (the friend) said everything would be fine and agreed that A didn't treat me well...that he failed me and A did.  Anyway, the purpose of giving some of this history is it was somewhat of an emotional day.  Old wounds were re-opened.  I could have simply gone back to A or still continue down the road with C to see what happens.  I told A that I'm hoping that C is the one to prove to me that all relationships don't end in disappointment.  I realized today that I'm not an emotional eater.  At that very moment when my heart sank, I had no desire to go reach for something from the pantry (my company keeps a fully stocked pantry of crap, literally crap).  What I did realize is I tend to eat those nasty carbs when I'm tired.  I'm not necessarily hungry but I think I'm hungry because I'm so tired.  Now, I don't know if this is one of those lightbulb realizations because I think I have probably known all along that is where my weak point is but I just have never said it 'out loud'.

Last night I was perusing some blogs and the Token Fat Girl mentioned this Insanity workout.  I had never heard of it so I checked it out on YouTube.  Well, I was so intrigued by the results that people have gotten, that I am now going to order my own.  I know that my results will not be the same as it will be harder for me to finish a workout (it's literally insane) but I'm ready.  That reminds me I need to send a message to the Token Fat Girl to find out how it is working for her.   Have to get the skinny on it :).

I was supposed to go to my trainer tonight but I rescheduled because I have a splitting headache and the sore throat so hopefully will feel better on Thursday.

Day:

(B):  1 cup unsweeted almond milk - 40 calories, 3.5 fat, 2 carbs, 1 fiber, 1 protein
(B):  1/2 banana - 50 calories, 0 fat, 13 carbs, 1.5 fiber, .5 protein
(B):  1 scoop vanilla protein powder
(B):  2 cups coffee - 1 vanilla creamer, 3 reg creamers/6 splenda -
(L):  1/2 cup pasta - 88 cal, .5 fat, 37 carbs, 1.5 fiber, 6 protein
(L):  1 cup salad (lettuce, onions, cucumbers), 20 cashews, 2 tbs raspberry vinagrette (cashews) 165 cal, 13 fat, 8 carb, 4 protein, (dressing) 50 cal, 3 fat, 7 carb, 0 protein
(L):  1 can Diet Dr Pepper
(S):  1 low-fat cottage cheese - 81 cal, 1 fat, 3 carb, 0 fiber, 14 protein
(D):  Patty melt - 920 cal, 66 fat, 42 carb, 5 fiber, 45 protein

Daily Total

It's a new year, it's time for change!

It's been time for change but this year is going to be the year that I succeed.  I have always been overweight.  There has never been a time in my life where I was a suitable weight even looking back at pictures when I was a young child, so thin or closer to thin would be something new to me.  Over the years I have tried several diets and would lose a little bit and get discouraged and 'quit'.  I stayed the same weight from 1994-2009, not a healthy weight but the same weight nonetheless.  After going through some very stressful times in my life I gained weight.  I'm not really sure how that happened because my food intake didn't change.  Stress?  Maybe. 

I have a few health issues that do make it harder for me but I have to do this.  During this period of stress,  I found out my blood sugar was above normal, not to a diabetes level but definitely enough to scare me.  Since that moment in time I haven't been religious about my goals but I have tried to be better.  I try to watch what I eat and am seeing a personal trainer once a week.  I was seeing a dietician and she drew up a meal plan for me but some of her goals for me were unrealistic so I stopped seeing her. I do try to keep the things she told me in the back of my head as I choose my foods.  The biggest thing for me is it's not about food, it's about the exercise.  I need to move more, 30 min a couple times of week will not work for me. 

So with that said, here's to new beginnings and improved health.

I can't say that I will update this blog everyday but I am going to do my best.  I am going to try to post my food and exercise journal to make myself accountable. 

Tips from the Dietician:

• Never eat a carb without a protein
• Eat good carbs, no potatoes, bread, etc.
• Six small meals a day
• 15g protein/6g carbs for breakfast, lunch and dinner
• 7g protein snacks
• Eat beans everyday
• 2tbs peanut butter for evening snack - (helps sleep)
• No caffeine and absolutely no artificial sweeteners

So here is today's:

(B):  1 cup unsweeted almond milk - 40 calories, 3.5 fat, 2 carbs, 1 fiber, 1 protein
(B):  1/2 banana - 50 calories, 0 fat, 13 carbs, 1.5 fiber, .5 protein
(B):  2 cups coffee - 4 vanilla creamers/6 splenda - 80 calories, 4 fat, 10 carbs, 0 fiber, 0 protein
(S):  English muffin - 120 cal, 1 fat, 25 carb, 1 fiber, 4 protein
(S):  2 tbs peanut butter - 190 cal, 16 fat, 7 carb, 2 fiber, 8 protein
(L):  6 small meatballs - 226 cal, 10 fat, 5 carb, 1 fiber, 25 protein
(L):  1 potato wedge - 50 cal, 1 fat, 8 carb, 0 fiber, 1 protein
(L):  1/2 cup pasta with very light marinara - 88 cal, .5 fat, 37 carbs, 1.5 fiber, 6 protein
(L):  1 cup salad (lettuce, onions, cucumbers), 20 cashews, 2 tbs raspberry vinagrette (cashews) 165 cal, 13 fat, 8 carb, 4 protein, (dressing) 50 cal, 3 fat, 7 carb, 0 protein
(L):  1 can Diet Dr Pepper
(S):  1 low-fat cottage cheese - 81 cal, 1 fat, 3 carb, 0 fiber, 14 protein
(S):  Cheetos - 160 cal, 10 fat, 15 carb, 0 fiber, 2 protein
(S):  Coffee - 1 vanilla creamer/3 splenda - 40 cal, 2 fat, 5 carbs, 0 fiber, 0 protein
(D):  1 cup Lentils with onions & celery - 230 cal, 1 fat, 40 carbs, 16 fiber, 18 protein

Daily Total
1570 calories, 66 fat, 185 carbs, 24 fiber, 83.5 protein

Exercise

• Walked 3/4 mile during work hours.

Comments about Today

• I forgot protein powder in my protein shake - DOH!
• Cheetos, really bad decision
• Need to drink water
• Need to cut down on coffee/creamers
• Carb count is too high, needs to go down. 
• Calories a little on the high side.
• Need more exercise - appointment tonight kept me from exercising